Every year in my journal I reflect upon the past year and all of my accomplishments along with goals still in progress and for the next year. It reminds me of everything that I achieved and allows me to celebrate each accomplishment and gives me a good platform for continuing in my recovery and what else I want/need to accomplish.
One of the biggest rules I have for this yearly reflection is kindness and compassion. If I am still working on something, then I am still working on it. If I still did not make it to something on my list that I wanted to accomplish, then that is okay, too. This is not about what I did not accomplish, but about celebrating what I did. It about continuing to make, change, erase, or whatever any goals I may have in the future and the future is whenever. I do not have to accomplish everything in a month, six months, or a year. There is no perfection here.
- Working through difficult issues (some for the first time).
- Worked through some important OCD issues.
- Stayed committed to recovery and for the most part did not engage in behaviors all year!
- This was HUGE for me! I had a lot of ups and downs after getting out of treatment last summer. It was last winter, I turned things around and made huge changes and this year really did the best I ever have in recovery. I am really proud of myself.
- Improved my physical health through recovery.
- My body is slowly but surely healing from the eating disorder and it is awesome to hear after a year's time the improvement in my health!
- Worked through a significant portion of my fear foods!
- I have accomplished so much on my fear foods list! I cannot be more happy! I am eating foods that I have not eaten in years. I am so fortunate and grateful for my meal support and cannot wait to knock out those other fear foods ASAP!
- Made my entire treatment team proud of me.
- Started writing about recovery and gained more than ever expected.
- I never thought starting this blog would lead to anything important. I was so wrong. I am so grateful for everyone here that reads and every opportunity that has come my way because of this. I truly do not have words for how much you all and it all means to me.
- Celebrated my birthday again this year.
- The story behind this is that I stopped celebrating my birthday many years ago. I thought that I was not worth it and did not deserve any of it. It was not until last year that I started celebrating it again. This year, I celebrated it again and it was one of my best birthdays ever. I am worth it.
- Bought clothes for myself using the mantra, "Wear what is comfortable."
- This was a huge step for me and I am so glad I did it. Still need to continue to swap out small clothes and buy other clothes, but I am making more progress than ever.
- Gained the ability to read again.
- Up until earlier this year, I had been unable to read because my eating disorder had robbed me of that ability. My brain could simply not concentrate long enough to be able to read while I was sick. In recovery, I am able to read to my heart's content!
- Took better care of myself this year than ever before.
- Connected with others (family, friends, etc.) more this year.
- Ate meals with others and not alone.
- Big deal for me, too. I had continued to eat alone like I did when I was in my eating disorder instead of with others. Long story short, I made a big effort to overcome my fears and eat with other people. I do not have to eat alone anymore!
Of course these accomplishments and goals are not an exhaustive list (and I may have forgotten a few big things to write down!), but these are some of the most important recovery accomplishments this years and goals for the next. I have accomplished so much and I could not be more happy or proud of myself for my achievements. I cannot wait to see what else I can achieve in recovery in the upcoming year and beyond. I know, with recovery, I can accomplish the things that were never possible before when I was sick. I can accomplished my dreams.
- Continue writing.
- Continue to work on my fear foods list and the few items left.
- Stay committed to recovery no matter what.
- Build more body acceptance and love.
- Continue working through difficult issues.
- Continue to improve my health and heal my body.
- Continue to celebrate my birthday every year. I am worth it.
- Continue to take good self-care and make it a priority.
- Continue to eat meals with others and not alone.
- Find more self-compassion, more often.
- Achieve full eating disorder recovery.
- This is definitely an on-going goal!
- Continue to work on my OCD.
- Continue, "Wear what is comfortable."
What have you accomplished in your recovery this year? What are your goals for the future? Remember: Have kindness and compassion towards yourself when writing down your accomplishments and goals and NO accomplishment is too small to celebrate!
Labels: Eating Disorder, OCD, Recovery